The Road to Nowhere

So…I wrote this blog post 4 years ago on my old blog and I was like wow. Thought I would share again.

Ok so it’s a Friday evening and I should probably be doing other things, but my need to write is insatiable. As I reflect on these past few months a constant thought plagues my mind.  It’s one of those nagging thoughts that won’t leave you alone, until you sit and listen. It’s been something that the Lord has been personally speaking to me about and I wanted to share this thought with you.

I would like to call it “The road to nowhere.”  We’ve all heard it said, that life is a journey and we are the pilgrims on this quest to a heavenly land. But before we arrive and place our feet on the golden roads, we must make the trek through this land called earth. For some the journey is a great adventure, but for others is a never ending cycle of nothingness. Always moving and doing something but never going anywhere.

A little about myself, I love capturing moments and recording my life. I’m the girl with video diaries, piles of journals and numerous tangible reminders of the faithfulness of God in my life.  For those of you who understand there’s something that resonates within us journalist when we read over written prayers that God has answered.  We are often reminded of dreams and desires, and areas that need refining.

As I flipped through my current journal I noticed  that I was coming up against a wall with certain issues.  I was like what’s going on?  I was busy pursuing things that I thought would bring me closer to my dreams. I was venturing out of my comfort zone and trying new things. I made sure that I was anything but lazy. So I could not understand why despite all this motion in my life, I was going nowhere. I was going in circles.

My, aha moment came when I was reading about the children of Israel and their journey through the wilderness. God told them to go and take the promise land because he had given it to them. He said that he was with them and all they had to do was obey and go.  But in their unbelief they shrunk back and said that their fears were greater than God. (I’m paraphrasing the whole thing but read num 14, its great!)  But back to what I was saying. The children of Israel chose to believe the report of the nay sayers despite the proven faithfulness of God.  These people lived in what I like to call the land of miracles, food from the sky, water from a rock, a sea splitting in half. I mean seriously?!?

This really got me to think about dreams and desires that God has placed in my own heart.  How I took a look at the giants and believed in their ability to destroy me than in power of God to deliver me. I saw the giants of fear, shame and impossibility, (just to name a few) and said in my heart there is no way I’ll come out alive.  Because of their unbelief they were left to wander in the wilderness for 4o years! Their journey was not a 40 year trek; it was days but not years. The children of Israel walked, and walked for 40 years in circles.

I don’t want that to be the story of my life.  And I share all this with you because I don’t want it to be yours either. Where are you going?  God never said that the journey would easy but he has promised to guide you with his presence as he did with the Israelites. What is the promise land for you? What dream? What is the vision, has God placed in you?  That when you stare at the giants, you begin to doubt in God’s warrior abilities. You see, God promised the Israelites a land flowing with milk and honey but he never said that attaining that land would be easy. He told them  that they would have to drive their enemies  out of their land. But in all he promised them victory. The battle was already won. All they had to do was believe and that’s all God asks of us when we see thegiants in our live. He says believe.

Possessing all that God has for us is no task for the lazy and the doubting. There will be road blocks; there will be fighting but what God has said to be yours is yours.  So I ask again where are you going? Will you continue to travel on this road to nowhere or will you choose to believe HIM who is all things and go in and possess the land? May God give you the courage to do what he has set in your heart to do.